Chapter 629 629-I Am A Monster.

"I knew I could trust you."

As I replied with this, the liking I have for her increased, while the darkness growing in me also went down a bit, all of which I clearly indicated to Trisa, who kept taking it all in strides, no doubt placing me at the level of great Gods for my generosity and sacrifices.

'Though, for how much longer will you survive?'

I mused as both my hands went to hug Trisa's waist while making her attach close to me, seemingly taking in her comfort and she, like the gentle-hearted woman she is, pushed herself closer to me as she lightly hugged me tight, the comfort I am sending her at this action of hers making her just hug me tighter.

Thus, the two of us just sat there like this, enjoying each other's warmth like we were the only two people left over in the world, a sense of belonging that she would only be able to attach to me. Thus we sat there, letting time pass by as the half an hour mark hit, the two of us still wide awake, but the warmth I was giving her was something that she was getting addicted to.

The aura of life that I am subtly marking around Trisa is so pure that it's like the highest drug there is for elves. Once she gets into this, she will never be able to leave it. I will be like the final destination that she will always want to be with, the warmth and happy feeling of belonging, that she will never be able to get anywhere else.

And within no time, her favorite activity will be to lay on my lap, hug me tight, and just sit there.

"Never thought I would have one of my own teachers sit on me like this."

I suddenly spoke, making Trisa smile a bit.

"I can say the same here."

She replied as she lightly moved into the position she was sitting in, to which I spoke.

"Where is the washroom here? I would like to go for a quick trip."

These words of mine just went on to get more chuckles from Trisa as she very, I mean very reluctantly got out of my embrace and spoke.

"It's just right down the hall."

"Thanks."

Saying so, I stood up and started to walk away but not before placing a light kiss filled with a lot of feelings on Trisa's cheeks, one that made her blush madly while those cute ears of hers trembled up and down, leaving her like that I walked out of the room where the servants kept their movements, my light question easily leading me towards the washroom.

'Guess it's time to start this.'

For Trisa to not fully fall into any sort of suspicion for me, this is the action that I have chosen to take, for even with all her blind belief and worship towards the church and me, she isn't a fool. You don't reach her level of strength being a fool. If she is pushed too much, she can think for herself too that there is some foul play here, and for that, I need to crush any problems that arise now itself.

Thus entering inside the washroom, I quickly connected myself to Orpheus, raising my power levels to her level.

[Ding!]

[30 seconds gained!]

With that at my hands, I didn't even wait for a moment, my presence disappearing from the washroom, soon appearing in the room where Trisa was waiting, her eyes focused on the door. The moment I appeared in the room, the complete divine pressure and presence of mine burst forth, fully putting Trisa to her knees.

I even activated the inner marking of life within her that only extremely lights up when she is praying to Orpheus or is near me. Then I added the divine power to it. With her mind, it didn't take her long to understand what was happening, but I didn't let her even open her mouth as my voice in a female pattern very similar to Orpheus started to fill Trisa's mind, one filled with divine might and power.

'My child seems to have taken a liking to you, your pure soul helping to keep the darkness in him away. Hence, I have blessed you to feel everything he can, and now your soul and life shall only live to make him walk the path of light. I have connected you to him in all ways possible. Don't tell it to him, just be the light of his life, keep supporting him until his life is complete as a hero, and even after that, be his and be his light...'

As the end of my words finished, Trisa fell to the ground with blood flowing from all her orifices, her life barely on hold from hearing the divine voice of the Goddess Orpheus directly into her mind without her being a saintess or a chosen one. Well, at least I need to go this far to prove to her that everything happening is true.

And thus, as her eyes began to shut, I made her see the illusion of Orpheus completely hidden behind a white mist in her eyes as it shut completely. And thus, as she lost her consciousness, I waved my hands and brought her back to full health, making her perfect. Thus I disappeared from the room, appearing back at the washroom.

'Now, that's the second time that I have almost killed this woman.'

Washing my hands, I started to walk back to the room, the head maid waiting outside as I smiled at her and entered inside the room. My sight came upon Trisa fainted in the room. When I made my scene, I made sure not to let anything leak out, to the rest, nothing happened. But to this believer, her Goddess descended and gave her a divine decree, and every suffering she is to go through from now on will be the gift she has to overcome to be my light.

Thus I picked her up gracefully and walked up to the chair, sitting on it I placed Trisa lovingly on my lap as I started to slowly play with her hair. From now on, she will suffer a lot of mental attacks but by the end of it all, I will make sure to give her the most beautiful yet fulfilling life after it. It doesn't make anything better, but it at least puts my heart at ease a bit.

'Cause as always power talks and right now Trisa is the most important piece I need for me to deal with the other elf protagonist. Trisa will be the main key that I will link to place the elven protagonist as the next disaster, just like I will do with the other ones. 'Cause, in the end, it was always them or me.

And even with all the powerful gods now loving me, I am not going to challenge the system that can keep me hidden and help me take advantage of the Gods, at least not until I can find more information and make myself understand that I can take the system on. But that journey is a long way.

'But even then, I would have died a dog's death without the system.'

No matter how much I curse my situation and tell it's heavy and all, I know deep in my heart that I am loving the current situation. I love this life that I am living currently and that's what at times makes me curse myself, making me sometimes despair at the fact that I am a very awful person at heart.

If it wasn't for the threat and gifts of the system, I would not have worked as hard as I did and ironically I wouldn't have reached the current situation I am in, one of power, strength, might, and popularity. If I didn't have the drive that I did, I would have lived a pretty normal life and that would have been my greatest regret.

In this place where with strength they can play you around like a toy, I would have been a toy, just like Trisa is right now, which scares me a lot because in a way, aren't I a toy right now? One I feel the system can break at any time.

'Yet I still love this...'

I have come to understand that I love this power, this manipulation and plays, and no matter how much I deny it, I have to accept the fact that I am a monster.

And then find a way to live with it all.