Chapter 522: Your heart

Vera felt her eyes became hot. This was just unbelievable. This man… this prince… she could see it, feel it… he truly desired to submit himself to her and be subservient to her. 

She could not help but tear up. This was just too much. Just too much. She never would have thought that someone… someone would love her to this extent. For so long, she had hated the world, she had hated how cruel fate was to her. She had suffered all too much, always alone and by herself. But now here she was, in the arms of the man who was willing to give his all to her – her mate. And it was not even metaphorically but… literally. He wanted her to be above him on top of that!

It was too unbelievable and unimaginable that this powerful man would do this all for the sake of protecting her. And she could not help but wonder if she even deserved him. 

"No… shh… I'm sorry," his voice pulled her back to the present as she felt his fingers wiping her tears away, his voice worried now, "… f*ck, I'm such an ass! I told you I'm not going to force you. But here I am… I'm sorry, don't cry, please. I was just… I guess I'm just scared I can't stop myself from persuading you. I'm scared even right now, that I might suddenly …" he trailed off and gritted his teeth, looking mad at himself. 

Then he let his head fall back on the bed before covering his eyes with the back of his hand. "I'm sorry…" his voice turned into whispers now. "I'm just… really scared right now, Vera. I think I'm becoming a coward when it comes to you… I'm too scared of losing you, of harming you that I can't even wait and make myself stop from convincing you on this despite knowing full well that you will need time to think about it…" he let out a shaky breath. 

Vera suddenly kissed his mouth when he opened it again to speak, making him look at her in shock. When he saw her face, it was not one that was scared or angry, but one of a loving countenance, with gentle eyes staring at him.

"You're not a coward," she told him, smiling tenderly. "You're anything but a coward, Gid. You don't know how brave you are for offering yourself like this to me. You don't know how brave you are to want me to use you as my tool and become your owner who can control your life and even your will. Gideon… how could you think that you are a coward for being able to do that? No one… no one would ever subject themselves to this, yet you…"

As Vera struggled to speak more, Gideon flashed her a smile. A smile saying that he was not even feeling even an iota of doubt nor regret with his promise. "It's because you're my life now, Vera. As I have told you before… I will do anything and everything to protect you, to have you stay with me forever." 

"Don't you feel scared or worried that one day, I might… abuse my powers on you? What if I…"

He shook his head, smiling. "Not you, Vera. You will never do such a thing."

"How can you be so sure? People change over time, Gid… I might…"

"Yes, that's true. Time can change anyone but there's one thing I am more sure of than anything else in this world. And that's you… your heart." He caressed the tattooed flower on her chest, symbolising their mated status. "This heart of yours will never… ever change no matter what happens, no matter how much time has passed… this heart of yours will forever love me. That's the only thing I'm sure of, and that's the only thing that matters."

Vera's tears fell again. She was utterly speechless at his words. 

"I trust you and this heart of yours much more than myself, Vera. No, I don't even trust myself one bit anymore. Someone must take a hold of me, a tight grip of me and that someone is none other than you, my mate. No one is worthy but you. And…" he smiled again as he continued wiping away her tears, "… even if you do begin to act wickedly over me, I won't even mind it one bit. I'm allowing you to be wicked whenever you like. Just like what you did when you rode me, my sweet mate." His whispers became hoarse and devilishly mischievous. "I just found out I actually loved it… it turned me on so f*cking much when you dominate me like that… and you can't deny that it had turned you on too. I could feel it, love… you can do more of that to me, Vera. You can torture me like that again –"

In a swift move, Vera's hands covered his mouth, his erotic mouth that was spouting temptations again. 

"E-enough," Vera's face was so red as she looked at him. "I am not… talking about that when I said I could abuse my power over you… you silly man!" she retorted, blushing hard as she was unable to deny the fact that she had imagined herself dominating him more when he was saying that and that she had actually felt an incredible thrill and desire to do just that. Gods in heaven above, what had happened to her?! 

He licked her palm suggestively and her eyes widened as he chuckled again. 

"I'm not worried about that. At all. I told you, I trust your heart more than anything else in this world. In fact, I am more worried, just a bit though, on what you'd do next to me in bed in the future." He smirked wickedly as he teased her, licking his lower lip, "I feel like my sweet mate here, despite all her innocence, is actually more of a dominant type." 

Vera felt steam exploding from her face and she indignantly hit his chest, before covering her reddened face with both her hands. 

"You're so adorable, my lovely mate…" he chuckled again, pulling her into his embrace. The sound of his happy laughter echoing in the small house. 

Then he told her, "I love you… I love you, Vera. I will love all of you just how you love all of me. No, if I can, I would like to love you more, more… because right now, I still feel like I'm not loving you enough. I want to love you more… and more… forever." 

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~ kazzen (01-09-22)