Chapter 135 - P..please

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" Shh , its alright " Su Wan patted Lin Yan 's back and continued to coax him with soft gentle words . She didn't know how desperate and afraid Lin Yan might have been at that time but she of course knew that she needed to slowly and gently help Lin Yan in getting rid of his fear . It was fine till now as he wasn't married and had no wife he had to bare his mind and body to but now the situation was different , Su Wan didn't like the idea of Lin Yan breaking into cold sweat every time the two of them were together behind a closed door .

" its alright , you can take as much time as you want , okay ?" Su Wan patiently coaxed , since Lin Yan didn't pull away from her embrace , Su Wan understood that her husband wasn't totally a gone case , she patted Lin Yan 's back before moving a bit away from him " you can slowly get used to being with me first then we will slowly try to interact with the other women "

Su Wan didn't say ' you ' instead she said ' we ' trying to explain to Lin Yan that the two of them will face this problem together . Lin Yan felt as if someone had stuffed his mouth with honey , a sweetness like no other was spreading in his mouth , reaching all the way to his heart .

He nodded , feeling albeit shy as he looked at Su Wan through his fluttering lashes , that skimmed his face like gentle dew droplets trickling down the leaves " I understand , I will try my best . Wan Wan , why don't you try to touch me ? "

" touch you ?" Su Wan was a bit stupefied , she really didn't think that Lin Yan would really willing to take such a step after telling her , his sad distorted past " are you sure , we can wait -"

Lin Yan shook his head and laid down on the mattress " I - I don't want to ruin my wedding night just because of this , I want to at least get used to your touches "

Su Wan felt like someone had whacked her over the head , the sight of Lin Yan lying on the mattress with half of his shirt undone , with a flush blooming on his face and those dark misty eyes that were? looking at her as if an innocent doe was staring at her , was creating an intoxicating sensation in her body . Luckily , Su Wan had a hard mentality or else blood would already be leaking out of her nose like a broken tap

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Too dangerous , a Lin Yan like this was just too dangerous ah !

" alright , if that's what you want " Better men had fallen in front of dangerous beauty , then who was she ? She was just a normal woman alright !If the beauty demands you to touch him will you refuse ? Haha guess not .

Su Wan sat down next to Lin Yan , she peered at his sincere eyes that were looking at her with trust and love . For the first time Su Wan felt her heart beat violently , then it did compared to the other brothers - Lin Yan was like a wounded pup , and she knew how hard it was for a wounded dog to ever trust someone again . Trust when broken can never be repaired , even though Lin Yan was harmed to such a degree , he was still willing to trust? her despite his scars . Su Wan who usually never thought of pleasing a man , subconsciously wanted to treat Lin Yan better tonight .

She wanted Lin Yan to enjoy tonight and every night , tonight it wasn't about her , it was about him .

" remember to speak if you feel uncomfortable , alright ?" Su Wan knew that this was a big step for Lin Yan , he was finally letting down his defences and placing his trust in a woman , of course she didn't want to hurt him in any way possible .

" I am not made of porcelain" said Lin Yan sounding as if he was annoyed by the fact that Su Wan was treating him so gently but nonetheless , he was feeling really happy inside over the fact that Su Wan cared about him.

" Ready?" Su Wan chose to ignore his comment , she could literally see the anticipation and fear shining in Lin Yan 's eyes , Su Wan felt a bit conflicted and confused over Lin Yan 's condition but the latter didn't stop to give her time to retreat instead he reached forward and grasped her hand " I'm ready " since Lin Yan was shy , his voice was below a whisper but Su Wan still heard him in the silent room .

Su Wan skimmed the pad of her thumb over Lin Yan's lips before leaning over his face and giving him the most gentle kiss she could muster , at the moment . Lin Yan felt two soft rose petals touch his lips and felt his heart beat escalate ,? ever since he had married Su Wan , it was him who took the action first . Now that it was Su Wan who took the first step , Lin Yan couldn't help but feel a bit skittish at her touch .

However , before he could deepen the kiss , Su Wan moved away , and the soft petals vanished from his lips . Lin Yan didn't like it , he immediately pursed his lips and looked at Su Wan with anger filled eyes " I'm not a doll , you don't need to treat me like one !"

Su Wan chuckled at his words , but didn't comment instead she started sliding her forefinger down Lin Yan 's chest . Lin Yan who was bristling with anger immediately calmed down , as electric shocks? ricocheted in his body . This was the first time a woman touched his bare skin , thus Lin Yan couldn't fight back the shiver as Su Wan's finger trailed further and further downwards .

" Wan Wan …" his voice shook " Please , I -"

" please what Ah Yan ?" asked Su Wan as her finger came to rest at the last button of Lin Yan 's shirt " do you want me to stop ? Or do you want me to continue doing what I'm doing right now ?"