Chapter 340. We shall Overcome

Margos worried about you too

Kyouko-san tells me.

Right, I fainted

Got it, Im going then

I try to head to the room where Nei-san is.

Then

Wait a moment

The door opens and Minaho-neesan appeared.

Ahgood morning, Minaho-neesan

Good morningshow me your face

Minaho-neesan stares at my face

What?

Looks like theres no problem

Proooblem

You seem stable. Should I say as expected of Nagisa-chan?Mao-chan too of course

Kyouko-san smiles

Little girls cures all sorts of diseases after all1

Err

I wont deny it.

If Mao-chan tells meDo your bestafter running a full marathon, I feel like I can go for another 42.195km more.

Youdo you not know how much danger you were in?

Minaho-neesan speaks to me holding both of my shoulders.

Danger?

Thats what Margo was afraid of!

What is she afraid of?

Its not that Im

Margo has always been worried about the danger that you would become a man whos not hesitating to hurt and kill people

Me?

Humans get numb on a sensation when they get used to it. That includes peoples death

Okay

Not hesitating to use violence in order to protect the familyit might be unavoidable but it will be strange if you get too used to the violence. Using violence on people for just a trivial thingfeeling easy to kill people

Theres a lot of them in my line of work. Guys who lose their brakes. Those guys cant be worked with. They dispose people with some reason. Just being with them is dangerous

Kyouko-san said.

It was expecially dangerous for yousince the situation is too special

The situation is too special?

If you didnt shoot Cesario Viola in that timingnearly half of the people on that floor would be dead. Therefore, you were right to kill him. Thats situation 1

Yeah

In the first place, Cesario Viola is Neis enemy, hes a real scum that nobody would complain whoever kills him. Therefore, it shouldnt matter that you killed him. Thats situation 2

Right.

And, that place was an insane and chaotic space. Just before that, Kouzuki gramps requested for a murder and Cordelia killed a man. In spite of that, Gramps and Cordelia dont seem to be judged by the court of Japan. The outlaws of the underground society and the owner of an extreme power are togetherit was a place where crimes are overlooked. Thus, in order to save people, you killed Violayou shall not be judged. Thats situation 3

Being told once againthats true.

A normal human would justify their actions with the reasons I gave. Telling oneself that its not wrong to kill Viola. Butthe head only works towards justification, the heart doesnt

Kyouko-san said.

A murderer is a murderer. Taking away a persons lifecauses a physiological rejection in regards to the blood squirting out. Thats for normal humans

Normal humans.

True, when I shot a bullet to Violawhen I saw the red blood

I felt horrified.

Scared.

Let me tell you againthat one was a truly special situation. You taking a mental shock in regards to killing a person is natural as a human being butits possible that the situation would cancel the shock

Possibility.

For example, someone saysThis cant be helped so you didnt do anything wrongdefending your murder. Its Viola so its fine to kill him, orSince this hotel is extraterritorial, theres no problemwhile being talked as such, youll also thinkthat might be You feel your heart is saved. But, as a resultyou forget self-justification, guiltthe face that you killed a person will become light inside you

Yeah

The memory of killing a person to protect thefamilywill be memorized in your headthe disgust and shock your heart felt that time would be forgotten. The, what do you think will happen?

Kyouko-san keeps talking as she observe my reaction.

Next time you get in troubleyoull become a person who uses more violence than necessary. You try to solve problems with violence, and your brakes wont work anymore

Youll lose the fear of hurting people

Theres a possibility of becoming a violent person

You were lucky back thenYukino-san was there. Shes a girl who screams around her emotions when her heads nervous, not even reading the atmosphere

Minaho-neesan looks at Yukino.

Whats with that. Its as if youre making a fool of me!

Yukinos angry.

Shes got no awareness so shes the real deal!

Kyouko-san said looking amazed.

If youre a person with a bit of kindness to othersthen you cant say those horrible things on the spot. The situation back then was hopelessly dangerousit was an unusual world. Yukino-san who brings the common sense of the everyday world and screams out her emotions is the clear madman. Shes a lass whose ego is beyond savingbut it was fortunate that she threw her daily worlds common sense to you

Yukinos puffing.

Somehow, it feels like Im being told that Im messed up though

Kyouko-san and Minaho-neesan ignores Yukino.

As a resultyou were brought back to the everyday world. I must not kill people, and its horrible to hurt peoplewas the priority inside your head

Therefore, you didnt overstep the line

line?

Illegalthe outlaw world shouldnt be taken for granted. Just like me

Kyouko-san laughs sadly

But, Iam a member ofKuromori, a criminal organization. I already belong to this side

You belong to a criminal organization butstaying on which side of the line is another thing. Youre still on the side of ordinary people. You still have the common sense in you

Common sense? Whats common sense? Is that important?

Yukino asks.

Asking that question means that youre really a foolish girl who grew up spoiled. Well fine. Let me tell you

Kyouko-san said while smiling wryly

Humans are a group creature. Creatures that cant survive without making agroupcalledsociety And yet, its a creature where each one has a will

Ive heard about this before.

Societyas agroupalways look for optimal conditions and changing. At the same time, theindividualalways aim for the optimal situation. This is usually calledthe pursuit of happiness However, there are many cases where the optimization as an individual and as society confront each other. I think its easy to understand when you compare it to companiesfor the companygroup, its easier to reduce the personnel expenses and yettheindividualwhich is the employee wants to raise the salary even a bitor something like that

I see.

The group and individual arent always conflicting buttheres always parts where the optimization is incompatible. However, in case of humans, the individuals cant continue to survive unless they organize as a group and the society isnt allowed to crush an individual as long as the individual is in the society. Thats why a compromise is needed

Yeah

Therefore, in order for the society and individual to coexistthe group has to endure. This is a fine rule that the individual must endure. This iscommon sense In each groupits decided within the relationship of the group and individual. Therefore,common senseisnt always constant. It changes according to the group

But, things like you shouldnt kill, you shouldnt stealthose common sense is universal isnt it?

Yukino refutes.

Well of course. Thats because thecommon sensecomes from the fundamentalliving instinctof humans. If you cant keep that strange common sense, its impossible for the group to be organized you know?

Trueif a murderer or a thief lives unregulated, you cant condition the society.

Now then, any kind of animal group will always produce a stray. You know the talk about some percent of worker ants dont work at all? Its prepared to respond to sudden changes in the social environment. Its thefluctuation In Saruyama2, thestrayis always chased out every year. The alpha male of the boss monopolizes the females and drives out the young males out of the herd. Both of those grow stronger outside the herd, then beat the old boss and take over the herd. Thestrayis an absolute necessity in the group

Stray

In human societyusoutsidersplay that role. Because were deviated from the social common sense, we can directly cut off the affected part of the society directly

A crime is a crime! Youre just self-justifying your crimes!

Yukino snarls at Kyouko-san

Well, if you look at it with eyes of common sense

Kyouko-san laughs.

What Im trying to say iseither way, the common sense of the world is bigger, and it has a base. The world of outsiders is a world where common sense is not necessarythus onlyoutsiderscan survive. Ah, theoutsidersin this case isnt just outlaws and criminal organization. Even powerful people like Kouzuki house areoutsidersbecause they deviate from the world of common sense.

Minaho-neesan looks at me with kind eyes

You can just stay in the world of common sense. Noplease stay there. And if we step off the right track, or lose whats important, tell us

Minaho-neesan.

Weve already crossed the line after al

Thenshe looks at Megu and Mana.

You two, stay with him. By looking at you young oneswe wont be drowning in the world of insane

But

Minaho-neesan, Ive already

Ive killed Cesario Viola.

I can no longer turn back

Minaho-neesan

Did you kill Cesario Viola because of hate?

Thats

You didnt, did you? You tried to save everyoneand as a result you killed him

Yeah

I wont say its an accidentI know its hard for you. But, its not that you wanted to do it, do you?

Yeah

Minaho-neesan hugs me.

I will carry that burden with you for the rest of my life

Minaho-neesan

The emotions overflow from the inside

Im here with you

Nagisa hugs me from behind.

Me tooYoshi-kun

Onii-chan

Megu and Mana cuddles with me.

Yoshida-kun! Get well!

Mao-chan too

I

You can cry if its painful. Cry a lot

Minaho-neesan tells me.

Well drink all of your tears

At that moment

My tears overflow.

The emotions Ive piled up explodes inside me.

Uuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

I cant speak but groan.

My body trembles.

Geezyou still have this much accumulated!

Nagisa scoops my tears with her tongue.

Me too!

Megu and Mana licks my face.

I

I lost my voice.

Justtears falling down.

Dont worry. Well never leave younever

Minaho-neesan saidand licks my tears.

Mao too, I want to lick!

Okay, sure

Nagisa carries Mao-chan

Ufufufu!

Mao-chans small tongue licks my tears.

Its salty! Yoshida-kun!

Feel refreshed?

Kyouko-san asks me laughing

Yes

Im finally able to speak.

You seem to haveovercomeit

Over-cam?

In Japaneseits getting over it3?

Kyouko-san smiles.

As long as you liveyoull experience a lot of things. Even painful, sad, or traumatic experiences too. But, confront it, accept it, understand it, make it your experienceand unless you overcome it properly, the experience will remain as an obstacle in your heart. If you dont go through the process of experiencing your experiences, you cant digest any memories

I wonder if I overcame Viola.

Yeahthats right. In this boys caseits better for you to digest the downside in your heart completely. Before meeting Nei

Kyouko-san looks at Minaho-neesan.

Im a little rough you seeI cant win against Minahos tenderness

Kyouko-san is delicate enough

Minaho-neesan answers.

Its just that Kyouko-san is always thinking from theoutsiderperspective

Im trapped in that thought you see. I thought that having him meet Nei while having a bomb in his heart is good for both of them, just like shock therapy. Thats a battlefield mentality. True

For now, its better to take time and choose a reliable method

YeahMinahos calmness is right

Kyouko-sans convinced.

Yoshi-kunno matter what happens, I like Yoshi-kun. That feeling wont change

Mana too

Megu and Mana clings to me.

But, ICesaio Viola

Im a murderer

Ipulled the trigger with Yoshi-kun Therefore, Yoshi-kuns pain is mine as well

Megu

Yeah, Manawill take Onii-chans pain together

Mana

I was told by Minaho-sanshow a usual face until Yoshi-kun lets out his emotions properly

Therefore, Megu-oneechan has been holding back until now

Does that mean?

If these girls said at firstyou did nothing wrongyour heart would be confused, wont it? Therefore I didnt let them touch about Viola first

Yeah

If the two defended me killing Viola as soon as we see each other

I think I wouldve closed my heart.

Wrong. Thats not it. Its my fault!like that.

By the way, why arent you clinging to him?

Kyouko-san asks Yukino.

Yukino goes aloof

Haa?! Why me?!

Dont you alsoLOVEthis guy?

Theres no way thats true!

Yukino snapped.

In truthI hate it that Yukinos here

Megu said.

Me too, desu

Mana too.

But, I thought that Yoshi-kun would be glad if Yukino is here when he enters the roomso I held back

Me too, desu

What are you saying! I came here by my own will!

Yukino shouts.

As expected, lets throw her out the window

As usual, Manas cruel with her sister

Well, dont say thatwere having breakfast soon you know?

Tell Katsuko-san that Yukino-san doesnt need her share

Hey hey, Mana

Instead of thatboth of you go and help Katsuko-nee

Yeahyoure right, Yoshi-kun. I was worried about Yoshi-kun so we came to this room

True. Katsuko-san saidGo on, Ill be fine

Katsuko-nee.

Katsuko believes that youll be fine if left to Nagisa. Shell heal you

Minaho-neesan said.

Misuzu-san is also so mature

Mana said

Misuzu?

Yup. If its Danna-sama, hell definitely recover. Misuzu knows itshe said

Shes worried about Ruriko-san right nowso she said that she wants to be by their side

Misuzu

Michi-chan tooI have to guard Misuzu-sama, and Ill just accept Masters scolding latershe said

She saidI have a clear Idea what master needs from me right now

Trueif Michi guards Misuzu, I can feel relieved.

Did Michi move ahead knowing my feelings?

Both of them are amazing. Yet, were just moving aroundwaiting for Yoshi-kun to become well

Me too, desu

Megu and Manas face turn gloomy.

Its fine. Its fine for people who are not in hurry to be absent minded. Its fine to take it easy. Japanese are always too ahead ondoing something

Kyouko-san said.

Anyway, go help out Katsuko-nee. Okay?Im going to Nei-san

Okay

Sure, Onii-chan

Megu and Mana head to the kitchen.

Thenhows Nei-san doing?

I asked, Minaho-neesan

Well you see

Minaho-neesan hesitates to speak

Did something serious happen?

Kyouko-san answers instead.

To make it shortshe returned to Yasuko.

Yasuko?

Not Natou Nei

But Najima Yasuko???

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