33. Ties and bonds1

Children who were abandoned by their familystrongly endures arent they? You need your heart to be more durable

Natou-senpai spoke sadly

ButA child who can endure an unbearable situation, is abnormal as expected

You see, humans say Im lonely!when theyre sad, say It hurtswhen theyre in pain, I dont want itwhen they dont like something, they say Im hungrywhen theyre hungry, If they dont have someone to tell their feelings honestlywhen enduring it has become normal, their hearts would be numb as expected! Theyd go crazy!

Then, theyll break

Just like you!

Just like us

Margo-san and Natou-senpais eyes were lonely

Err

I

I see, Im broken

It seems that you havent noticed it yourself?

Margo-san smiled wryly.

Y-YesIm sorry

You have three symptoms showing upFirst is what you just said, Not refusing whatever is instructed

Of course, in Yoshida-chans case, its only the People who you think you like!

You calmly accept the possibility that your body or environment would be hurt in the future. Youre not hesitating on the possibility that you yourself would suffer a loss!

In other words you see, you dont have anything!

Idont have anything?

Normal people you see, thinks of their current self, what composes him as a human as very important. Thats why, theyd protect that above everything!

Their own dream, or their hopes for future, a beloved family, or friends

But you see, Yoshida-chan doesnt have any of those!

Thats why you can move your body calmly in such a dangerous situation. You dont have any fear of losing the current environment or your hope for the future

Yoshida-chanyou normally think that I dont care what happens from now on. No one would be troubled even if I diedont you?

Youre nihilisticor should I say that youre already at the farthest point of despair

CertainlyI live with that kind of feeling.

Theres no way my life would be happy ahead of this

Having sex with Yukino is probably my highest point in life.

AndThis shouldnt continue forever.

Its special case right now and theres now way this will continue

Theres no way for me to be always lucky happy.

Ill get caught by the police eventuallyor get killed by Endou.

Or maybe Yukino

The remainder of my life will surely be miserable

Ill just writhe and die in the depths of despair

But, thats fine

In exchangeI was able to embrace Yukino!!

I have no regrets!

Well, I have the same symptoms after all!

Natou-senpai?

Me too

Margo-san too

You seeI can go and walk around the place in Tokyo where theres a lot of people, naked and pee there when Yuzuki-sensei orders me! I dont care even if its broadcasted worldwideBecause, I dont care about my future anymore already

Me tooI can hurt anyone as long as Sensei orders me. I wont hesitate to kill either. Even if its the president of Americaas I dont care about my life anyway

If I say in reverseI can somehow live by having Yuzuki-sensei take out various orders!

RightI dont have any will to do anything. I dont care about anything at all. Theres nothing important to me at all!

Yoshida-chans the same right?!

Natou-senpai smiled gently.

NoYoshida-kuns case is Breakis much more intense than us. It shows remarkably on the second symptom!

Margo-san looked at me

Like a scientist whos experimenting

You dont tell a lieto anyone

Eh?!

NoUhm, even I can tell a lie!

Margo-san swing her neck from my rebuttal.

Youhave you ever lied to me or Nei?

No, but thatstheres not a day passing yet

Usual boys would lie a lot for the first time they met me. They arrange words without their mind on it. They talk about their grandiose pride, or try to make me laugh with such a made up lieYoshida-chan never did that at all

Thats becauseI dont have anything I can be proud ofIsnt my story such uninteresting?

Youre very interestingEverything that youre thinking shows on your face. You dont hide a thing at all

Really! A child who cant lie, right?!

Even if you tried to lie, everyone would know that its a lie immediatelyThus your lies wont be able to pass

Or ratherwouldnt Yoshida-chans face show up Sorry, I liedon his face if he lied?!

HaaSpeaking of which, It might be.

Because Im dull and bad at lying, I thought that my words dont come out immediately butCertainly, I notice that This is a lieby myself.

A person who doesnt lie is afraid that other people might lie to them! They dont want to hear other peoples lies so in projection, they force themselves to not lie to other people!

Hahaa strange laugh leaks out of my mouth

Im a completely broken guy!

Thats rightYoure Broken Thats why, the third symptom is a problem!

Third?

Yoshida-chan, Why are you so deeply attached to Shirasaka Yukino?

Y-Yukino?

Attachment?!

You do know that its not love isnt it?

Thats right, this isnt love.

I dont think that Yukino would come to like me from the beginning.

For example, have you imagined the two of you watching a movie, going to karaoke, or going into town to buy clothes?

Thats.

I-I cant

Theres no way I can.

A man like megoing out on a date with someone like Yukino!!

Right? Thats not serious love isnt it?!

Thats right, an honest love cant be formed between me and Yukino.

Thats why I raped Yukino!

And yet, why did you rape that child?

???!!!

Normal people wont rape people they love! They would wish for their happiness!Even if that child wont go out with themselves!

T-Thats.

I think it is!!

When you heard that she had a boyfriendYoshida-chan wasnt able to endure it, did you? You raped her forcibly and wanted her to be yours!

ButNo matter how many times you rape her, shell never become yours

Thats why, as the number of sexual intercourse increases, the contents escalates steadily too!

Why are you so obsessed with Shirasaka Yukino?You should think about it at least once!

Thats!

Thats, uhmI like Yukino! Thats why!

Yoshida-chan, what do you know about her? Do you know what kind of food she likes? Do you know her hobbies?Youre not interested in those right?!

Natou-senpai?

You liked her body or her face?!

Margo-san?

T-Thats not it. Thats notreally it, I do like Yukino! Its no good if its not Yukino!!

I told youits called obsession!

In the first place, Yoshida-chando you even know whats romantic love() or desire()?

I dont know.

Probably.

Romantic love or Desire.

Why dont you organize your thoughts first?! Yoshida-chan, have you thought of wanting to have sex with me?

Natou-senpai made a pose presenting her outstanding figure to me.

T-Thats

Answer honestly! If I pressed saying I want to be embraced by Yoshida-chan!would you have sex with me?

PerhapsI will. Natou-senpais charming after all!

Thanks!But you see, when were already both naked and at the time when youre about to put your penis in, then I would whine saying Lets stop!What would you do? Your penis is already rock hard, its in a helpless state!

Perhaps, Id give up

Youre fine stopping sex?

Yes

Why

NoYou dont have to be that angry

Im not angry!Im surprised! Im shocked!!

What

Nei, youre too agitated. Yoshida-kunwhat its not Nei butHer, what would you do? Would you give up midway sex?

HerShirasaka Yukino

If Yukino suddenly refused in the middle of the sex!

NoPerhaps, I wont be able to endure it

IWould still continue by force.

Right. If its you, you would still force to have sex no matter how much she cry or beg. You even made it this far

Thats rightThats how I raped Yukino

Then, why were you able to hold back when it was Nei? Does Nei have less sex appeal than her?

MuThats rude Maru-chan!

Sorry sorry, thats a joke of course!

Thats rightNatou-senpai has a stronger sex appeal than Yukino

Blond beauty

She has deep clear features carved that are more beautiful than Yukino

Even her proportion is mens ideal for an 18 year old girl.

Simply comparing them as women, Natou-senpai would win against Yukino

In short, youre not a sex maniac. You have it different from the pure sexual desire, you desire Shirasaka Yukino!

To be honestYoshida-chan, what would you like to happen to that girl?

YukinoWhat do I want to happen?!!

Do you want to go out with her as a lover?

Impossible. That is.

Do you wan to marry and have a happy family with her?!

I cant do that!!

Do you want to eat lunch with her and talk happpily?

No good. I dont know what I should talk about with Yukino!

Rather than that Yukinoi would never want to talk to me!!

Theres no topic we can talk happily!!

Im startled.

I shivered.

Icant spend daily life with Yukino!

Thats whyyou can only make contact with her in the worst form of rape.

UunRather, since you know that rape is the worst way for communication, you went to it

Thats no good.

Im the worst.

I thought that I wanted to continue raping Yukino for as long as possible Of course, I think that its impossible to be foreverI might get caught, dieI know that the end would come eventually ButI want to continue embracing Yukino forever and ever!! Aaah, whats with me?!! Whats with me?!!!! Im the worstThis is!!

I dont even understand myself!!

AnywayI understood that Ive done something terrible to Yukino

I think that your heart is helplessly obsessed with The girl named Shirasaka Yukinoas a compensation act of releasing all of your negative part as a human being Why has she become the target, youre the only one who can understand that!

Iam obsessed with Yukino to relieve the stress in my heart?!

It seems to be the only one

ButI really like Yukino!

I told youThats not romantic love!

NeiShut up for a moment!

Margo-san stops Natou-senpai

Could I ask another thing? Youre in a sinking ship right now. A rescue boat arrives but theres only one other person that can be helped It would be you, Nei, and Her, who would you save?!

Ill save the two and Ill die

I answered immediately

SorryMy way of asking was bad. Its already certain that you will die by drowning and theres only one of the two that can be saved, who would you save?

I was lost in thought for ten seconds.

Natou-senpai. I think I want Senpai to survive!

Thats my honest feelings.

Shirasaka Yukino doesnt need saving

Yes

Even I am surprised.

Im shocked

Idont love Yukino

It seems that you understood the difference of love and obsession

ButIf so, just what are my thoughts about Yukino?!!

IWhy do I want Yukino?!

Why do I want to monopolize Yukino!!

My hearts beating fast

.I feel dizzy.

I feel my stomach getting sick!

Calm down Yoshida-chan!Its fine! Its not that were persecuting Yoshida-chan!

YeahNei and Meare just seeking if you have the same Dangerous darknessin your mind! And make you aware of it!

Thats why, we now know Yoshida-chans current state!

Weve passed through what youre experiencing right now!

Thats right, Im Yoshida-chans senpai! Im your Onee-chan!

Natou-senpai?!

Margo-san?!

Your Obsessionis another type of Darkness

We also cant escape from our own Darkness!!

Both of them are my senpai?2

In my caseIm attacked by a terrible destruction impulse multiple times every month. I cant help but to hurt someone unrelated, an unknown person!

Margo-san confesses with a pained expression

Could that be like last night?

Last night was differentLast nights patrol was an irregular to check Yoshida-chan

My real Hunger Stateisnt like that

Preventing the enemy from moving and then continuing to gradually torment them!

The impulse wont stop for several hours!

Margo-san grips her fist with power!

Perhapsthe cursed fist bathed in a lot of peoples blood.

This impulse cant be cancelled with just normal sports or martial artsI dont fight with people stronger than myself. I want to torment people weaker than meI want to do nothing but bully them!

Margo-sanhas a dark smile.

You see, I want to set fire. I want to see big fires I want to burn all!

I recalled the burning car last night

Thats rightNatou-senpais eyes looking at the flame were abnormal

Katsuko-san is suffering from the impulse of wanting to be raped intensely by a man!

Rape wish?

Katsuko-san?

Katsuns sexual impulse is the same as self harm!

That person thinks of sex as suicide. Forcibly raped by men repeatedlyshe wants to be killed by sex

Katsuneven though shes having a hard time to deal with sex

Shes mentally unstable, a dangerThus Yuzuki-sensei observes Katsuko-sans state continuously

So thats why Katsuko-san is a maid in Senseis house.

Actually, Senseis the one watching over Katsuko-san!

Right now, I want to open a bakery in the futureis the fake wish Yuzuki-sensei gave her so shes quite stable

Un if Katsun stopped making bread, shed go mad, Im sure!

Fake wish

A constructed hope

Thats why Katsuko-sans immersing herself on making bread.

Yuzuki-sensei herself is also carrying her own Sorrowful darkness

Eh?

That person has making other people unhappy as her reason for living

But actually, Sensei is thinking that herself should be unhappy

But, that Dark beliefis being swallowed everyday!

Shes creates a lot of schemes every day to make herself unhappy!

As a result, she has gathered children with high risk just like as who is a similar existence as herself!

Senseis wishing for Destruction! Social, human, including everything that one holds since born!

But, that persons ability is too high. If she cant do DestructionanywhereSensei would spread out her Dark worldsteadily

Sensei is going to change this school into Hell!

Thats right.

When I first met her.

Sensei said that!!!

Ill make this school hell!!

Everyone of us have a psychological disorder. We cant live with a normal person. Hurting other people, making them unhappyitll crush ones heart

Un. The dark part of your mind has to be set free! You have to Were cursed after all! Were living like vampires who victimize other people!

But, Yuzuki-sensei said that we have worth in living

This world has has the law of the jungle! Were born to prey on other people, raisedand as a result, weve been distorted in this way!

Even wehave the right even if we victimize someone. Even demons, devils, are born and have the right to live! Thats what Sensei taught us!

Youll live as my own victim and you should live with me as your victim!

Just like how Im living by eating other sinless people, you should live by victimizing other people too. Ill be the one to forgive your sins. My sins will be forgiven by the devil!

Thats why its fineIll hit someone whos innocent once I cant endure it! Ill hit because I want toand yet, Ill live!

Even meif Im not able to endure it anymore, Ill burn something! Ill burn everything! But Ill live! Ill keep on living!

Just what are their pasts?

Perhaps its a lot of sorrow, sadness, and hate

Because of someone heartlessthese girls have lost their choice on their way of life

Thats not just for Natou-senpai and Margo-san.

Yuzuki-sensei too, Katsuko-san too, and Iwakura-kaichou too

And then, me.

Iwill I know their story someday?

Iwill I talk about myself to these people?

I dont know for now.

Yoshida-chanyoure in the same family as us. Youre accepted as theseventh!

Me tooIll be Yoshida-chans onee-chan!

Stillthe two senpai have accepted me for the time being

If ever your libido isnt enough for only just Shirasaka Yukinoyou can use my body anytimeIll meet any of your demands

AhOf course, even Onee-chan can give her virginity to you! Ill do anything!

If ever you want to rape another woman, just tell usIll make her faint and bring her to you!

Geez, Maru-chanDont resort to violence, Yuzuki-sensei or I can just trick them to come. Katsuns there too!

In exchange, cooperate with us!

UnI want us to be together and do a lot of Bad things!

Hurt people whore innocent, dirty their mindsto clear out the darkness in our hearts!

Lets do a lot of terrible thingsIm sure its fun!

Yeah, Lets be together as much as possible!

Youre ourcompanion!!

I

I

My answer has come out a long time ago.

Iam the same as these people

Hurting normal people to please the darkness in my heart

Devil

Best regards!

Natou-senpais face is wrapped in delight!

Margo-san showed her white teeth too!

Theyre the same as me.

I dont think this will continue for all the time.

Still,Id want to continue to taste the joy of hell for as long as possibile!

Remodel the school building

Gather the problem students

Thencontinue to bring trouble by oneself!

Very wellIll become one of those Devils

A made Companionsfor the first time in my life.

Im glad.

Im really glad.

But

Yukino?

What would happen to her after this?!

AfterwardsI talked to Natou-senpai and Margo-san while eating the remainder of the bread.

Its not a scary talk anymore.

Its not the story of the past or about the darkness of the heart anymore.

Just some foolish conversations

Friend-like

Like the story of Katsuko-san failed mail order of a cooking tool

Or Margo-san teaching children martial arts twice a week

Or Natou-senpais brand of cosmetics shes using

Yo-chanyou should be changing that Natou-senpai soon!

EhThen, what should I call you then?!

I want you to call meOnee-chan!

Thats a bit

What?Embarrassed?!

Yes

Then Nei-chanis fine. It sounds like Onee-chanafter all!

T-Thats the same!

You dont want to?!

Please dont glare at me!!

Nei-sanIs that still no good?

Eh, that feels so formal!

ButYoure older, and a senpai!!

Nei-san, Nei-san, Nei-san, Nee-san, Nee-san3Well, that evolves to there! Ill allow it for now!

Haa

You see, Nei had a little brother

Margo-san muttered.

Had?!

He died, ehehe

Shit

Nei-sans eyes has tears accumulating

Sorrythat was a taboo

Margo-san apologized in a hurry

GeezI remembered it because of Maru-chan!!

Shit

Shell cry if this continues!!

I tried to change the talk in a hurry.

Oh right, CanI call Margo-san Maru-san?

Margo-sans face stiffened!

Yoshida-kunIf you say that again, Ill crush your balls!

I-Im very sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

While were having that talkthe chime for the first lessons end sounded.

Yo-chan, what would you do? Would you attend the next class?!

What should I do?

Its troublesome to meet Yukino and Endou

The people in the class might be having rumors about me

Ill be going back to the mansion soon. I cant be here since I long graduated from the school after all!

Margo-san says so then stood up

I intend to stay here butI can give you at least a fellatio!

N-Nei-san?!

I want to have my virginity taken with everyone looking! I want Katsun to take a photo too. You want a commemorative photo too, right, Yo-chan?

T-thatscertainly.

Thats why, Ill give you only fellatio now. Ah, but, Its my first time giving a fellatio so dont have a lot of expectations!

Your first time?!

UnIve seen a lot of people do it a lot of times so I know the ropes at least!

N-no way!

Nei-san opened her lips and took out her red tongue

This tongue would lick it!

Hey hey, NeiI think you should get a kiss before doing fellatio

Ah, Oh rightI still havent given my first kiss yet!

Nei-saaaan!!

When I thought of it!

The iron door opened suddenly!!

Appearing from the inside is

Yamamine-san breathing heavily??!!

Yoshida-kun, youre still here!

Yamamine-san runs towards me!

Aside from Nei-san in her uniformShe flinched from the foreigner Margo-san with a scar on her face.

Hello. Im a last years graduate. Have you ever heard about the American student Margo Starkweather from anyone?

I know. Good day Senpai

Like a member of athletic club, yamamine-san politely bowed to Margo-san.

Un, good day

Margo-san returned a bow to Yamamine-san too.

Thenwhats wrong, the second class is about to begin right?

And when I asked Yamamine-san

She presented me a bunch of papers with writing on it

T-These are the notes from the first lesson. I also made Yoshida-kuns copy. If you dont get something, just ask me!

The slit eyes forced a smile

Shes really a good child.

A gentle person.

Natou-senpai, if youre finished with your business, please return Yoshida-kun to the classroom. Please!

She bowed towards Nei-san deeply

For my sake.

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2. Once you see that youre not alone, youll feel relieved Yuzuki-sensei

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