Yang Shao Yu walked out of the elevator and saw Lin Zi Rui standing at the door of his house. In his hand, he holds the luggage he has forgotten before. He looks pale as his gaze fixed to the floor.

Lin Zi Rui seemed to feel someone’s gaze on him. He looked up and immediately smile appeared on his face.

Yang Shao Yu froze. He unknowingly frowned, lost in thoughts. He wondered why Lin Zi Rui appeared at his door. Most accurately, he was thinking how could Lin Zi Rui appeared in front of him so quickly after what had happened between them.

"You are back." Lin Zi Rui walked to Yang Shao Yu and spoke to him with a smile.

"Why are you here?" Yang Shao Yu didn't face Lin Zi Rui directly. Instead, he leaned on the wall holding his jacket in one hand while inserting the other in the pocket of his pants, showing a little carelessness.

Lin Zi Rui flinched a little by his behavior, but he took a deep breath and still looked at Yang Shao Yu with a smile on his face.

"You forgot to take back your clothes yesterday." Lin Zi Rui handed over the luggage to Yang Shao Yu.

Yang Shao Yu finally remembered that he had left in a hurry yesterday that he has forgotten to take his luggage with him. Then he stretched his hand to take the luggage from Lin Zi Rui.

"Shao Yu." Lin Zi Rui’s voice was slightly weakened as he speaks, "My brother said don't let go easily if I like someone. I, I like you. So, can you accept me?" He looked at Yang Shao Yu expectantly.

"I don't like you, so why should I?" Yang Shao Yu turned his head away from Lin Zi Rui's eyes.

"Do you really find me intolerable?" Lin Zi Rui bowed his head and clenched his fists as he asked.

"Yeah, so don't come to me in the future." Yang Shao Yu said as he turned to enter his house.

Lin Zi Rui stayed in the same place with a trembling body. When he heard the door opened behind him, he suddenly awakened from his stupor and pulled Yang Shao Yu toward him. When Yang Shao Yu was still in shocked, he took the opportunity to steal a kiss.

Yang Shao Yu was caught by surprise and felt the soft lips of Lin Zi Rui against his. It was cold and he was kissing him with obvious caution.

Yang Shao Yu’s mind immediately cleared and pushed Lin Zi Rui away.

Lin Zi Rui’s body slammed against the wall.

And it was pretty hard, especially on his head.

There was a moment of silence. Lin Zi Rui straighten himself against the wall in self-depreciation. He felt ridiculous. He covered both his eyes, but it cannot stop the tears from seeping through his fingers.

Yang Shao Yu really wants to take a step toward Lin Zi Rui and tell him not to cry.

But at this moment Lin Zi Rui let go of his hands and his expression was firm as he spoke, “Just take these two days as a joke. I won’t entangle with you anymore after this.” He walked away after he finished.

Because of his slight hesitation, Yang Shao Yu failed to catch up with him.

Turning back into his house, he sat on the sofa as he thought back about the kiss with Lin Zi Rui. His heart seems to be on fire.

Lin Zi Rui went into the elevator and watch his embarrassing face reflected on the steel plate. He smiles in heartache and wiped away his tears.

Lin Zi Rui has understood the truth since he was a child. Things that do not belong to you, will forever be out of your own grasp.

Just like his parents’ comfort and love. Lin Zi Rui long ago had accepted, it is the things he would miss in this lifetime.

Right now he truly believes Yang Shao Yu’s love was destined not to be his, maybe it won’t ever be his in this life…

This truth was understood by Lin Zi Rui when he was young. Since he was forgotten by his brothers at the playground, Lin Zi Rui felt that his heart has become smaller. He had hated his two brothers when he was younger, and not until he grows up that his resentment finally eased a little.

If you ask him why he hated his brothers and not his mother or his younger sister? All he can answer is because they had loved him once but they also hurt him for their love to his younger sister.

However, Yang Shao Yu had never given him love. So, Lin Zi Rui didn’t hate him. He just gave up his heart on him and would never tell him he likes him anymore in the future.

Liking a person is tiring.

This is Lin Zi Rui's summary.

Days passed in a hectic way. Yang Shao Yu went to work like before, but even if he was busy, he still couldn't help but think of Lin Zi Rui. He remembered his crying face that day and he remembered his kisses that day.

As for Lin Zi Rui, from that day onwards he has been taking night shift duty. He tried to keep himself busy, afraid the silence would lead him to remember Yang Shao Yu and nailed him to the ground with pain.

On the other hand, elder brother Lin frowned as he walked back and forth in his office. His secretary stayed at the door, didn't dare to enter when he saw the gloomy face of his boss.

"What's wrong?" The second brother of Lin came over and saw this weird picture.

"You come in quick." Elder brother Lin beckoned the second brother.

"What happened?" The second brother leaned back on the sofa languidly as he spoke.

"Xiao Rui has someone he likes."

"What?" Second brother Lin immediately sat upright in shocked.

"And that person didn’t even like Xiao Rui. Xiao Rui had confessed twice but without any success."

“So that’s the reason Xiao Rui looks somewhat wrong these days?” He had not seen Lin Zi Rui for almost 3 days. Recently he always on night shift duty. But even in the daytime, they cannot find his shadow anywhere. Last time when he went to the hospital looking for him, he eventually left without even seeing him.

"Yeah." Elder brother Lin was also distressed about this matter. Don’t know how much weight Xiao Rui has lost recently.

"How could he confessed twice. According to Xiao Rui's character, once should be ..." The second brother watched as his elder brother’s face turned weird halfway through the speech.

"Don’t tell me you actually persuaded Xiao Rui to confess again for a second time?" The second brother narrowed his eyes.

"I thought the other party would not refuse Xiao Rui ..." He was also very annoyed about this.

"Are you stupid!" The second brother Lin scolded the elder brother in anger.

Elder brother Lin stayed quiet as he was scolded. Even though his face was ugly, he didn't say anything. Sighing, he decided to ask the cook at home to do more nutritious soup for Lin Zi Rui to drink.

"Shao Yu?" Jiang Qi called out to Yang Shao Yu who stared at the bowl of soup in a daze.

“Hmm?” Yang Shao Yu responded but his gaze didn’t stray away from the bowl of soup.

Today Yang Shao Yu went to Ke Yan's house for dinner. Jiang Qi specially asked Aunt Li to cook a pot of chicken and mushroom soup for him. Because he saw Yang Shao Yu liked to drink this soup when he was hospitalized.

Looking at the chicken and mushroom soup, Yang Shao Yu remembered that Lin Zi Rui also liked to drink this soup. But Lin Zi Rui always said that the soup cooked by Jiang Qi was more delicious.

He smiles and suddenly thought that he hadn't seen Lin Zi Rui for many days, and sighed again.

Jiang Qi looked at Yang Shao Yu’s tangled expression and don’t know what to do.

After dinner finished, Jiang Qi pulled Ke Yan into the kitchen, "Did you see Shao Yu’s face?"

"Do you want me to ask him what happened?"

"Um." Jiang Qi nodded. "Go and ask. I'll help you wash the fruits."

Ke Yan stepped out of the kitchen, sat on the sofa, and looked at the lethargic Yang Shao Yu. "What's wrong with you recently? You haven't gone out to have fun and always in dazed. What happened to you?"

Yang Shao Yu look at Ke Yan, "You tell me, does it feel strange for two men to be together?"

Ke Yan look at Yang Shao Yu and asked, "Are you sure you want to ask me this question?"

Yang Shao Yu also knows his previous question was absurd. Aren't both Ke Yan and Jiang Qi are men?

"In fact, it’s not important for both of us to have the same gender. The key is, that the other person is Jiang Qi. If it is not Jiang Qi, what is the difference between men and women? It just happens that Jiang Qi is a man and what I like is Jiang Qi.” Ke Yan’s words came out slowly.

Yang Shao Yu was surprised because it was rare to hear Ke Yan speak openly about his relationship with Jiang Qi.

"As long as you like that person, why bother with gender?" Ke Yan continued.

Is it because of love, you would worry that the person has the same gender as you? But since you already like him, why bother to care about what he is?

"I can see that Doctor Lin likes you, and I guess you are troubled by this matter. But do you really think you don’t like him? I can see that you like him very much." Ke Yan has always been accurate in looking at other people’s emotions. Plus being Yang Shao Yu’s friend for so many years, does he still don’t know what his friend has in his mind.

"How do you know Zi Rui likes me?" Yang Shao Yu asked.

“It’s so transparent.”

Yang Shao Yu thought of Lin Zi Rui's crying face once again and suddenly he wanted to see him in person. He suddenly understood what his heart felt when he saw Lin Zi Rui’s painful expression. It’s not pity for losing a good friend, but a heartache, because he saw him in pain.

As the light shed, Yang Shao Yu quickly left to find Lin Zi Rui. He really wants to see him.

When Ke Yan walked into the kitchen, he saw Jiang Qi secretly eating the fruit. He went and patted his buttocks. Jiang Qi turned back and asked, "Did you both finish talking?"

"En, Shao Yu and Dr. Lin ..."

"Has a disagreement?" Jiang Qi interrupted Ke Yan's remarks.

"Yeah." Ke Yan hugged Jiang Qi, "They will solve it by themselves. Let's go up and have a good rest."

Ke Yan held Jiang Qi in his arms and walked upstairs, rushing towards happiness.

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