March 16th: I couldnt sleep the entire night. I was too excited. It was the first time I hear my name coming from his mouth. Id always imagined his beautiful voice calling my name countless time, how mesmerizing and sensual it would be to hear him pronounce my name. My heart almost melted when I heard him call me by my name. It was too bad that I could not have that recorded. If I have the recording, I can listen to them every day.

March 20th: Gu Yus recovery is progressing very well. He can recover fast because hes still young. He walked today, although he still needs the aid of a walking stick. He did not reject me when I helped him out of the bed. I dont know whether that means he does not detest me as much anymore.

March 28th: Gu Yu had been having headaches for a few days. He couldnt sleep. He asked me to read to him out of the blue. I used to read to him while he was still in a coma. Did he hear me reading to him when he was still unconscious? Could he hear me talking to him? I wanted to ask him, but I dont dare to.

April 1st: Its April Fool again. I spent the day by Gu Yus side at the hospital. I recalled Chunchun telling me about confession on April Fool. I would not feel embarrassed even if I get rejected on this day. When I stared at Gu Yus handsome face today, I nearly blurted, Gu Yu, I like you. I really do.

But in the end, the words were stuck in my throat. Why? Why am I such a coward? I must tell him the next time.

April 20th: Gu Yus condition is getting increasingly better. Doctor said that he expects to discharge Gu Yu in another two weeks. They will continue to observe his recovery in these two weeks. He will be discharged from the hospital if they find his condition to be well enough during the two weeks observation period. How did time pass so quickly? Im thrilled that he recovered, but Im also a little sad. I wont be able to see him every day anymore after he got discharged from the hospital. Will we return to being strangers like we were? If only time could stop. Im so depressed.

May 10th: Doctor confirmed that Gu Yu can be discharged from the hospital the next morning. He will return to live in the Gu Family Residence. It is also the day I wish will never come. I cannot see him every day at the hospital anymore. I dont know whether he still wants to see me after he gets discharged from the hospital.

May 15th: It has been five days since Gu Yu got discharged from the hospital. He never contacted me again. I felt like the past six months was like a dream. Perhaps he still doesnt like me. But I have no regret, even though our fates ends here. I will accept it.

May 19th: My gosh Gu Yu sent me a message. Am I dreaming? Or am I hallucinating? He asked me to meet. What does that mean? Does he have something to say to me? Does he want to ask me out? What should I do? Im so excited that I cant sleep. No, Xu Weilai. Calm down. Be reserved, youre a lady. Be well prepared and give him a good impression.

May 20th: Gu Yu invited me for dinner at a restaurant on the hill to thank me for taking care of him during the time he was hospitalized. He even smiled at me. He has a pleasant smile for an indifferent person like him. And he invited me on 20th of May, which was a celebratory day for couples. The pronunciation of 520 rhythms with the meaning of I Love You in Chinese Mandarin language. I dont know whether he understands the meaning behind todays date. When we walked out from the restaurant, he held my hand. Gu Yu, do you know that you need to be responsible when you hold a girls hand?