Chapter 892: Methods To Reassure Yourself

I suddenly realized that the soft body next to me must have been Su Qiao sleeping on my bed in the middle of the night. What was going on? Does Su Qiao need a hug pillow to sleep? Does she have to use me as a hug pillow to fall asleep?

“Ye Lin, you’re… awake.” Su Qiao’s hesitant voice sounded out in the darkness.

I didn’t know how to answer because I didn’t know what Su Qiao wanted to do nor her current state of mind.

Ai ShuQiao didn’t return Su Qiao’s luggage when she was released. Although the luggage wasn’t worth much, it also meant that Su Qiao had no replacement underwear or other clothing.

The current question on my mind was what did Su Qiao wear after she took a shower? I don’t think she put on her sweaty underwear again, so was she wrapped in a bath towel or was she naked?

In order to prevent anything from happening, I went to sleep with my clothes on today. However, even with my clothes on, I could clearly feel two soft masses pressed up against my back.

Is it my imagination? I think Su Qiao’s breasts seemed to be larger than two months ago, or is it that her body should be much more mature than that of a middle school student?

“Why are you in my bed?” After a while, I answered Su Qiao with a question.

“Do you hate me?” The room was dark, and my back was facing Su Qiao, so I couldn’t see the expression on her face.

“It’s not a question of whether I hate you or not…” I pretended to be calm, but I didn’t move my arms or turn around for fear that I would touch Su Qiao’s naked body.

“It doesn’t matter what you think of me, I won’t blame you. After all, it’s all my fault and I deserve it.”

Since neither of us could see each other, Su Qiao was much bolder than usual. She spoke right next to me:

“When I first came to Dong Shan City to be an extra, I was unfamiliar with the place and suffered quite a lot. If I wanted to get a role, I had to go to the director of the background actors. I once had my thighs groped just to get the role of a village girl. All I could do was swallow my grievances…”

“Finally, luck came my way. I was selected to join an American film crew and got a supporting role as a knight with golden armor. However, I was constantly teased by Miss Ai Mi. If you hadn’t come to my rescue at that time, I really don’t know what would have happened.”

Su Qiao, who showed her true feelings, pressed closer to me and the tip of her nose touched the back of my neck. It felt strangely itchy as if a kitten or puppy was kissing me.

Su Qiao’s following words contained a lot of self blame:

“I’m really not a good girl. I tried to sleep with you in order to get a role, I also secretly planted marijuana in your backpack to keep my role… You could have easily taken control of me, but you didn’t. You could have easily punished me too, but you didn’t… You’re the most gentle man I have ever seen.”

I just felt my throat was dry and I didn’t know what to say. I could only wait for Su Qiao to continue talking.

“When Madam Ai ShuQiao asked me to be her daughter-in-law, I did have an unrealistic dream of marrying into a wealthy family. I’m really not in a position to like you because I’m a vulgar and despicable person.”

Su Qiao gave a self-deprecating laugh in the darkness.

“During the two months of imprisonment, I couldn’t help but think of you whenever I was tortured. I would reflect my own mistakes, and regret that I had betrayed you…”

“Sometimes, I pretended Miss Marianne, who tortured me, was you. I imagined that you were whipping me as a punishment, so I was able to endure it without having a mental breakdown…”

Damn, you really are a masochist. You didn’t imagine that I would save you, but imagined that I was whipping you in order to endure.

My body couldn’t calm down, but I still forced myself to calm my voice:

“You still haven’t told me why you climbed into my bed.”

“I had a nightmare.” Su Qiao replied very quickly.

“I dreamed that I was captured and sent back to the bunker. I was subjected to an even more intense abuse than before. After I woke up, I couldn’t fall sleep. In order to reassure myself, I secretly climbed into your bed and wanted to sleep next to you… but I still woke you up.”

I wanted to ask Su Qiao whether she was wearing clothes to decide whether I could turn on the bedside lamp, but in the end I didn’t dare to ask. I was afraid that if I asked, the situation would take a turn for the worse.

Unexpectedly, Su Qiao seemed to have guessed my thoughts, and admitted herself:

“My underwear hasn’t dried yet after I washed it. I only wrapped myself in a bath towel after taking a shower, and now the towel has gone below my waist.”

Hey, you’ve always been so shy, so why have you suddenly become so bold? What exactly do you want to achieve tonight?

“I… am very unreasonable and shameless, right.” Su Qiao’s breath went deep into my ears along with her words.

“After learning that I was going to be given to a mafia godfather and become his plaything for the rest of my life, the thing I regretted most was that I had betrayed you. The second thing I regretted was not… not giving my first night to you… now that I I finally regained my freedom, I don’t know how long this freedom will last, so I made up my mind that if you wake up…”

“Those were the thoughts you had under special circumstances.” I tried to persuade Su Qiao to stop her actions.

Su Qiao shook her head. I could tell because her nose rubbed back and forth on the back of my neck.

“It wasn’t done on a whim, but my true thoughts. I’m sure of it. It’s impossible for me to erase the fact that I betrayed you before, but I can do this now so I won’t regret not doing it in the future. I will give myself to you, before my grandma meets me…”

Why do you want to put me in such a tough spot? As long as we make it through tonight, I can bring you back to Grandma Su tomorrow ‘relatively unharmed’, so why can’t you just go to sleep?

“I’m too sleepy, let’s do it tomorrow.” I tried to stall for time.

Even though my body was actually screaming: “Why wait for tomorrow? Now! I can’t wait a second longer.”

Of all the things I hate, the one I hated the most was being ‘controlled by others.’ Su Qiao’s abnormal behavior may have been in line with Ai ShuQiao’s expectations and I don’t want to play along to Ai ShuQiao’s plans.

“Do you not like me?” Su Qiao’s voice was full of disappointment and feelings of inferiority.

“I never said I didn’t like you…”

“But that’s probably what you’re thinking.” Su Qiao let out her inner thoughts.

“I’m not as beautiful as your female classmates, I have a bad character, and I’m three years older than you…”

“Even if I say that I want to give my first night to you, I can’t really show any proof. I already tore my hymen when I was doing splits as a child. If you accuse me of having relationships with other men before, I can’t really refute you…”

Su Qiao listed many facts that were not favorable to herself as if she was her own enemy.

“Even so.” She summoned up a little more courage, “Even so, I still want to like you. I still want my insignificant self to hold a tiny bit of weight in your life. Can’t you even give me that opportunity?”

There’s more than one famous book says: A man’s pity for a woman may turn into love and I’m currently facing this danger.

As for Su Qiao, I had never imagined that something would happen between the two of us. I had always sympathized with her as a girl with a rough life.

However, tonight, after she escaped from the devil’s nest, she couldn’t contain her excitement and uneasiness. She confessed to me as she hugged me while naked and it really stirred me up.

I could never stand seeing a girls’ tears, nor could I hear a girls’ pleas. At this moment, I hated myself for not being able to steel my heart, and for the fact that I couldn’t soften a certain part of my body no matter what.

“Can you do it out of pity for me.” Su Qiao muttered with her lips almost touching my neck.

“You don’t have to feel any pressure, and I won’t hold you responsible afterwards. Just think of it as fulfilling one of my wishes.”

She continued to beg me quietly while moving her slender fingers back and forth on my back.

“If I’m so unattractive to the point that I annoy you… then just treat it as a punishment for when I betrayed you…”

I could feel Su Qiao’s body tightening after she said those words.

“When I was suffering in the bunker, I thought it was God’s punishment for betraying you, so I accepted it… but you rescued me again and I was completely wrong. Since the punishment didn’t come from you, then I can’t really be at ease.”

“Punish me, treat me cruelly. You can twist me into any shape you want, I’ll be fine.”

Su Qiao, who was already confused, made a very provocative declaration.

Do you want to kill me? You definitely want to kill me, right? I have to take you to see Grandma Su tomorrow. If I do S&M play with you tonight, what if your grandma figures it out tomorrow? What are you going to say? That you were beaten by Ai ShuQiao’s subordinates? Moreover, my heart problems haven’t been fixed yet.

“Put on the qipao.” My life was on the line and I suddenly came up with an idea.

“Qipao?” Su Qiao, whose arms were enveloped around my neck, didn’t understand what I meant.

“Yes, the qipao.” I put on an arrogant tone, “Who told you to take off your clothes all at once? Taking off a woman’s clothes piece by piece is a part of the fun. Even if you washed your underwear, at least put on the qipao so I could take it off.”

“Okay.” Su Qiao was already used to being ordered around by me, so she obeyed my orders.