Chapter 12

Despairin the lowest level

My parents were a terrible person .

Abuse have become part of the daily life .

The environment was terrible .

My personality was also twisted .

[It’s that brat with the abominable eyes . ]

When my father vomits, he kicks the young me .

As per usual .

My mother also uses violence .

Along with heartless words .

I just had to give birth .

I can’t even kill an unwanted brat here in Japan, or so she says .

At that moment, a violent veil covered my thoughts .

Those bastards, I’ll kill them someday .

Now that I think about it, was that the so called survival instinct?

I’ll be killed if I keep going as it is .

My instinct tells me so .

That’s what I thought .

But one day .

My parents are suddenly missing .

They left me behind .

They just suddenly disappeared .

My uncle’s family took custody of me .

Before my parents disappeared, they told me to call my uncle .

“I entrust the brat to you . ”

My uncle’s family took custody of me with conviction .

I was raised in an environment that I thought was not “ordinary” .

My uncle’s family were kind people .

I decided that I’d be a child without problems .

For these people .

I don’t want to bother these people about me .

Mimori Touka have come to know kindness .

Thanks to my uncle’s family .

I have to be a child without problems .

And then I noticed,

I’ve become air .

I’ve become a mob .

I’ve become harmless .

I’ve become normal .

However, it may have returned before the transfer…

The real – “Mimori Touka” .

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I open my eyes .

The cold ground .

It’s quite ruggy .

My back hurts .

I raise my body .

[……hmm… . . ]

I look around .

[So this is the Disposal Ruins, huh…]

It’s dark .

It’s too deep .

The darkness .

The status… can I confirm it?

[Status Open . ]

A robotic voice echoed in my head .

I see .

It’s necessary to have enough visibility, huh…

Ah, right…

I move my hand .

I feel around the nearby ground .

Oh .

[Found it . ]

The touch of leather .

My unique item .

I grab it and held it in my hand .

I can feel the jewelry near my thumb .

If I put magic energy in this jewel, it would illuminate, right . . ?

I’m reminded of that time when I use my personal skill on that goddess .

Reminder, it’s that shitty goddess’ commentary .

Magic energy, injecting .

The jewel began to shine a faint light .

The leather bag also emits light along with it .

That’s great .

Really, a feeling of “being able to use magic” .

[Oh?]

It may be weak, my field of vision still became better .

I look around .

Bare rock surface .

A ceiling with intense unevenness .

The ground is also strangely bumpy .

[Rather than a ruin, it’s more like a cave . ]

Hmm?

Is there something?

I stand up and approach .

[—-wha!?]

S, skull…?

Are these from a human?

[Ack~!] (T/N: gross onomatopeia)

Furtheremore, it’s just a half of a skull .

Where’s the other half?

Was it broken into two?

I gulped .

It was broken into two .

By what?

[………]

It’s settled .

My heart is beating like crazy .

That’s right .

This is the disposal ruins with zero survival rate .

Is it because my consciousness that have been half awake has become clear?

The area around my temple began to pulsate .

If you think normally, Mimori Touka will die .

Right here .

The goddess may not be here, but returning to the ground would still be difficult .

Unusual sweat began to spout out .

Die?

Will I die?

I have a bad feeling about this .

The putrid scent of death is drifting everywhere .

The scent of death from this disposal ruins .

Those guys, will I become like them?

Deathly footsteps .

This feeling…

Something, important .

What is this?

That’s it .

The feeling I had when I’m living with my real parents .

I’m about to be killed .

My heart is rumbling .

It’s pulsing became intense .

It’s dangerous here .

My instinct tells me so .

To me .

To Mimori Touka .

Live .

To be alive .

The reason for the warning is immediately apparent .

Suddenly– The brightness has increased .

The surface of the skull becomes orange .

The skull reflects some light?

[———]

It’s coming .

Behind me,

Something,

is coming .

Something that emits orange light .

[Fu shi yu oo… . uooorrrrrrroaaaaa~! shi yu~ oo~ oo~!]

Beast .

Beastly odor .

Stinking odor .

Bicha~ tsu!

Docha~ tsu!

Shuwashuwashuwa… (T/N: apparently, that’s how bubbles sounds .

Something falls on the ground .

Something sounds like its melting .

Did it just melt the ground?

Is it because of that shuwashuwa I heard earlier?

What the?

Something is… behind me?

I want to make sure .

But, I didn’t turn around .

The reason is because I’m sure .

The moment I move, I’ll be killed .

My reasoning acted as a brake .

It’s telling me .

Don’t move .

The one who destroyed the breaks— is my instinct .

I started running .

But,

The moment I started running, I fell over…

However, this turned to be my good fortune .

Grazing through overhead– something with a heavy mass .

Wind pressure .

Readjusting my posture, I run .

Only to be blown out by wind pressure .

Just now, did it just–?

Did it just try to hit me?

Did it just try to catch me?

Either way,

My head,

I need to do something,

I should try .

Full speed ahead .

No time to turn around .

Absolutely, no time at all .

The feeling of adrenaline runs through me .

My whole body .

Every cell in my body is scared .

My teeth is now chattering .

Shivering,

Chattering…

It’s still ringing, bit by bit .

I know .

I get it .

I understood .

No .

Level .

Status .

and,

Bloodthirst .

This adrenaline .

That’s right .

The real intent to kill .

It was different from what the goddess have released .

The goddess intends to overpower .

Now, the intent of that “something” on my back–

That’s bloodthirst .

While running, I suddenly realized .

Hurriedly, I hide the leather bag in my uniform .

This light have become a mark .

That’s right .

I’m going to slip in the dark .

…………

That’s why Iask .

Please let me go already .

[Hah… Hah… . Hah . . Hah… . ]

I want to reduce the sound of my breathing .

Breathing is difficult .

My sense of footing have become unreliable .

Thought of being shredded to pieces .

No— such thoughts must be thrown away .

Run away .

I have to escape .

My instinct tells me so .

I don’t want to die .

Right now, what’s controlling me is just my instinct .

Everything was left to my instinct .

Again, it overflowed .

Tears .

Even though, I’m not sad .

Even though, I’m not happy .

It’s just, I’m scared .

[Hah~! Hah~! Hah~!]

……… . .

Eh?

No .

I’m not scared .

There’s a scary thing, but…

The reason for my tears is another emotion .

Emotions I have recently tasted

At that time,

Ga~ tsu!

I’ve stumble upon something that stand out .

In the first place,

It was fortunate that I had been able to run through this darkness until now…

[Gah… Guh!? Hah~ Hah~]

Ah, I see .

I understand .

I’m scared but tears won’t come out .

I look behind .

I turn around .

That’s right .

I’m not scared .

I—-

[Oh, sh*t . ]

I’m frustrated .