Chapter 1117 I want to believe

SUMIRE

After making sure Huan was fed and dressed, she sent Ru a message. Although she wanted to spend some time with him, especially after Yuhi-san deprived them of time together last night. There is something she has to attend to this morning. She and Yuhi-san returned to the room. Sumire turned to the wardrobe, wondering what outfit to wear when she felt Yuhi hug her from the back.

"No touching." Sumire squatted his hand back.

Yuhi sighs deeply. "Really?"

"Yes!! I can't believe you told Huan that."

"It's the truth though. You should be glad I told him in advance, with his powers even if we lock the door when we are doing it, he?can still come inside."

That's true, with Yuhi-san's warning. Huan won't even think about coming inside. No matter how much he wanted to sleep beside her, because the door was locked he didn't come in. Still, it's not something he should be telling children!

"With the amount of children we were planning to have. I figured this was the best move."

"The amount?" Sumire repeated as she turned to face him.

Yuhi's gaze is gentle. "Yeah."

Thump. Thump.

Oh her stupid heart, she really has no resistance when it comes to come. Sumire wraps arms around Yuhi's neck. "I'm just a bit overwhelmed."

"Yeah, I know."

"But, I love you."

"I know Sumire."

"What do you know my dear? Do you know how much I love you, how much I'm willing to burn mountains, and people for you?"

Yuhi blinked and his lips curve to a smirk. "You always go overboard with your love declarations for me."

Sumire tilted her head. "This is nothing, I have more to say."

She can write entire poems and biographies regarding her love for this man in front of her. The fact that she has limited her declarations to these few words and her songs is already amazing. 'I am holding myself back a lot.'

Yuhi laughed and nuzzled his face against hers. "I know love." He trails off and his tone changes. "Are you still worried?"

"Aki aside. Lately, Lex hasn't been contacting me. I'm afraid something's happened."

'More importantly, now that I have all my memories back from my fifth life. I really need to confirm it with him. I know there is no doubt what I am seeing is correct. But does he remember? Does he remember how much he hurt me?'

Right now she is struggling to put the image of the Lucifer she saw in her dreams, and the monster he became

"Are you that worried about him still?" Yuhi wondered. "I know you have been having nightmares of your past again. I can't see those memories but I can sense your terror through the bond."

Sumire laughs weakly. "As expected of you Yuhi-san." She bit her bottom lip.

"It's hard, I am having conflicting emotions. He really did treat me well in those two months. I saw the Lex I fell in love with for three lifetimes."

"But?"

"I don't know how I can talk to him now that I remember in vivid detail of my kids murdered in cold blood." Sumire shuddered at the memory. "Yuhi, they were children. One of them was five, only five."

Yuhi wrapped his arms around her and held her. At first he didn't say anything and she was thankful.

"I believe you, because that's exactly what horrified me so much when I was in the US. Thanks to Mashima's counselling sessions, and everyone else being there for me when I went to destroy a base. I handled it much better, but it wasn't easy."

"My dear, he isn't- he isn't that type of person."

"I know Sumire, I know you really want to think that. But the bases I destroyed were under his command. Not Nagawa Mira, not Ibuki Suigetsu or Hijiri."

How come? Why? But she knows why doesn't she, it's all because of that stupid curse. It's all because of that woman. For the curse to be this strong in this life, that woman should have been reincarnated too. 'If I find her, and end her, perhaps Lex will return to normal.'

As normal as he ever will be. Sumire wasn't sure if it was a good idea to revert Lex to 'normal.' After all if Lex returns to how he was before the curse, and remembers all the horrible deeds he committed he will fall apart. She won't let that happen to him.

"The darkness, it's the darkness fault."

Yuhi exhales deeply. "Sumire-"

Sumire shakes her head. "He is kind Yuhi, he is."

"I know, otherwise your family wouldn't have accepted your engagement. I spoke to your brothers, they all said he is a good guy. If they determined that then who was I to argue? I even went over to meet him."

Sumire blinked. "You did?"

Yuhi nodded. "I trusted your brothers but I just had to make sure. I spoke to him, I saw how he helped the orphaned children. I know he was a good person. I know if it was that guy I met, he wouldn't have been able to harm a single child."

"Then, it's the darkness." Sumire argued.

"Not quite. I hope you haven't forgotten that I was a witch doctor, I specialized in curses and the dark arts. The curse that has been placed on Lucifer was actually one I was familiar with."

"Really?"

Yuhi nodded. "Because the witch who placed it couldn't get the man she wanted, she won't let anybody else have him."

"If it's like that, shouldn't it impact me more since I'm the target of Lex's affections."

"Normally yes. The curse was temporary placed on Lucifer, so if he kissed you or even touched you, it would have passed onto you completely. She was expecting this to happen, and he did kiss you didn't he?"

Sumire nodded.

"But I think Lucifer realized what the curse was before he came back to you. He must have tampered with the curse so everything passed onto him."

"What exactly was the curse meant to do?"