Chapter 73: Lost control (2)

The storm of emotions made Nana breathless. The kiss obliterated every single thought. She was unable to think anything. All her pain that she went through today evaporated into thin air.

Jinhai tilted his head and licked his tongue on her lips. She jolted. The warm and moist sensation snapped her back from her stupor. She finally realized what was going on.

No…no no no!

She struggled in his arms and tried to push him and get apart but as if already knowing this, he hugged her even tighter. He yanked her harder towards him. He bent back her head and smashed his lips on hers even more ferociously than ever. She tried to free her arms but Jinhai grabbed and locked her thin, delicate hands in his fist behind her back not letting her escape.

Nana tried hard but couldn’t get out of his grasp. He held the side of her head and relentlessly bombarded her with his kisses as if he wanted to suck the soul out of her. She kept on struggling but she was so tightly locked in his embrace that she didn’t find any space to move.

Then she started to gasp for air. She felt suffocated due to lack of oxygen and started flailing from side to side. But this time Jinhai understood what she wanted. He left her lips and she gasped loudly sucking a mouthful of air. She breathed in hard, her chest heaving up and down. But after just two seconds, he again crashed his lips on hers.

“Mmph!”, she whimpered.

Nana didn’t want to go on any further. Not because she felt disgusted. But, because all her indescribable and nameless feelings welled inside her. She didn’t want to admit but she was beginning to like Liu Jinhai.

Yes, she likes Liu Jinhai.

The type of like where she wanted to be with him forever, as a lover and as a life partner.

She wanted to bury those sinful feelings but they came with a drastic and sudden realization when he kissed her.

On the contrary, she wanted this kiss to last forever. This might be the first and the last kiss they share. But, then she felt ugly harboring such thoughts for a married man.

She gave up. In spite of all the struggling and protesting, he didn’t leave her. She had no strength to resist anymore.

Jinhai, as if sensing this, hungrily parted her lips with his tongue. He wanted to claim her mouth but her teeth were clenched shut as if still trying to resist one last time, but it was futile. He bit her lower lip hard and she gasped feeling the sudden pain. He took this chance and his hot tongue invaded her mouth. He pushed her tongue in a frenzied battle and swirled around, entangling it with his.

Nana felt the rush of emotions she never had before. Their bodies were freezing cold from the rain but they still felt waves of heat crashing their bodies like a tsunami. She went weak and was about to collapse but Jinhai had secured her in his embrace.

Sensing her complete surrender, he slowly released her hands from his grip while his tongue still danced with hers, and his lips still kissing and biting hers. She didn’t even realize that she was free. Jinhai held her head with both of his hands and fervently rained kisses. His tongue licked and swept across every corner of her mouth and then again swirled against her tongue in a circular motion.

She suddenly whimpered and Jinhai slightly opened his eyes. He saw that his thumb had accidentally pressed harder on her cheek where she was slapped. He immediately withdrew it and started caressing her cheek lightly; like he wanted to erase her pain. He felt helpless remembering how she was hit. A tear rolled down his cheek. He kissed her harder than before and thrusted his tongue deep, down her throat.

“Mmm…”, she moaned and could only tightly cling on to him. She had long lost her strength to stand. The pleasure made her mind gone haywire and she dug her nails on the back of his neck. He groaned and clutched her hair even tighter.

The passionate kiss lasted for a whole ten minutes. He slowly started giving gentle kisses, just lightly brushing them like a soft, romantic melody that soothes your heart, before he finally let her go.

He rested his forehead on hers, their noses slightly bumping into each other. They were panting heavily from the long, ardent kiss. Even though the kiss was over, it felt like they were still connected through their mingling breaths.

They were silent for some time when Jinhai spoke, “I know I should, but I do not regret this. I will not apologize for kissing you.” He looked straight in those brown eyes of hers, feeling no remorse.

She looked at him with tears burning her eyes. If he had said that he was sorry, then all those feelings she had for him would have died inside her. She would have hated him for kissing her. It would have meant that he took liberties with her and then wanted to get away from it by saying a simple sorry.

She would have felt like a mistress.

But he didn’t. She had braced herself to hear his sorry, but it never came. Nevertheless, everything was over. The one kiss destroyed whatever little friendship they had.

She yanked herself free from his arms. She was helpless at first when she was trapped in his embrace. But not now.

She raised her hand and slapped him across his cheek.

Jinhai saw it coming. It was to be expected after what he had done. So, he didn’t dodge or stop her. He let her hit him.

He smiled faintly. Her slap didn’t hurt him as much as she must have when Huian hit her. Not because she was frail or lacked strength. But because even after everything that happened, she still couldn’t bear to see him in pain. She held back her force.

This may lessen your pain a little…for what you suffered today. Even if it’s just a little, I’m glad I could make up for it.

He raised his head to face her. Without saying anything, Nana turned back and ran.