Chapter 372: The words that he always wanted to hear

The truth was that Jinhai had heard the conversation between Nana and Mu Shuchun. He already knew what kind of a person Nana was. All those months back when he had plotted to sleep with Nana and make her pregnant, he knew in his heart that she would never think of aborting their child. She would never take their child’s life.

But hearing it from Nana herself shook his heart. He felt a surge of emotions rising in his chest. To be honest, Jinhai always wished to hear it from her. Just like Mu Shuchun said, it was easier to abort rather raise the child who would be called as illegitimate.

Then his happiness knew no bounds when he learned that Nana never meant to hide her pregnancy from him.

It was a coincidence that Huian went to Natsukashi that day to insult her, and Jinhai was there too. He was present when Zhou Bingwen said that she was pregnant. He knew she would get pregnant, but how would he come to know about it, he had no idea.

So in case if Jinhai wasn’t there when the news had been broken out to Nana, would she have told him on her accord? Or would she have chosen to keep it a secret to protect his marriage with Huian?

The second one was the most plausible, simply because Nana was too kind. How could she bear to ruin someone’s marriage because of the child inside her?

But every last doubt in his heart was washed away with her words. Suddenly, he felt so light as if a huge burden was lifted off his chest.

She was never going to hide it from me…

Jinhai was crazy was for her. He was possessive and madly in love with her, but now he wasn’t able to describe the depth of those emotions he felt right at that moment. He felt as if his love just soared for her by miles.

While Jinhai was getting emotional, Nana had no idea why Jinhai was suddenly acting like that.

Why does he seem so…touched?

Nana knitted her brows.

“Jinhai.”

He said nothing but tightened his grasp on her thin waist. He rested his chin in the crook between her neck and shoulder.

Nana stiffened. Her neck tingled with his contact. The tip of his nose rubbed on her pale skin with his warm breath spraying on it, making her itch at that spot. His cold lips were slightly brushing on her neckline as if he was playfully teasing her. His warm breath and cold lips made a tango of opposite sensations making her heart beat faster and faster.

Nana felt her chest constrict with this intimacy. She didn’t even realize that she was holding her breath.

“W-what are you doing? I-I said that you should not get close to me…”

She wanted to sound angry, but she couldn’t harden her voice in a serious tone.

Jinhai nuzzled himself closer to her neck, and she sharply gasped in response. “Y-you…”

“Who told you to make me emotional like that?” Jinhai softly whined in a low voice.

“Huh? When did I do that?”

“When you were talking to that woman.”

Hm? Mu Shuchun?

Jinhai said, “You said that…you would have never killed our child no matter how difficult it had been for you to raise him despite the odds and challenges. You said that you would have never hidden your pregnancy from me because I deserved to know about our child’s existence. Nana…why are you so good? Your heart is truly so beautiful.”

Nana pursed her lips. “You…don’t you know it’s bad manners to secretly hear the conversation between two women?”

“En. I am bad.”

“…”

Jinhai pulled away and turned Nana to face him. He cupped her face with his hands. He gazed at her with so many unfathomable emotions stirring his black orbs. “Sometimes I think that I really don’t deserve you. I…made so many mistakes. I crossed every line to make you mine. I hurt you so much.” The light in his eyes dimmed as he felt that he was unworthy of her.

Nana stared at him with a sense of melancholy in his expression. She never thought of who deserved whom. She only loved Jinhai with all her heart.

“Your heart is so pure that I feel ashamed of my cunningness to use your feelings.”

Nana didn’t know what to say.

Jinhai lowered his head. “But even if I feel unworthy of you, I cannot let you go from my life, Nana. I cannot live without you. I am selfish. I know. I am a bastard. I know that. But I cannot let anybody snatch you from me, not even yourself. I will go crazy if you aren’t in my life anymore. I don’t know what I will do…”

With his thumb, he gently caressed her cheek. He stared at her so intensely that Nana felt her cheeks turn warm. Her eyelids trembled. “Sometimes, I feel to lock you up somewhere where only I can see you and where only I can hear your sweet voice. A place from where you will never be able to escape from me.”

Nana slightly widened her eyes. She felt as if her heart stopped beating for a moment, not because she was afraid, but his possessiveness for her made her heart flutter for a beat.

Jinhai seductively leaned in until their lips were only inches apart. Nana instinctively stepped back, but he caught her waist and pulled her closer to him until there was no space left in between their chests.

His gaze traveled from her eyes to her nose and then her lips. He whispered. “You know I can do that, right?”

Nana was unable to meet his piercing gaze, so she looked away.

Jinhai raised her chin and forced her to look at him. “Look at me. Tell me. You know that I can lock you up if I want, right?”

Nana finally uttered in a soft voice. “Y-you won’t d-do that…”

He tilted his head and smiled. “Why not? Trust me when I say that your husband is capable of hiding you from everyone. Even the Liang family will not be able to find you.”

Nana’s eyelids trembled again, and she bit her lips hard.

His gaze sharpened with that gesture as she bit on her pink lips. His Adam’s Apple bobbed up and down. He felt a knot in his throat, and a strange excitement was rushing inside him.

Jinhai growled. “Don’t do that, or I will take you here right this instant.”