Chapter 1040: Afraid (1)

Translator: Paperplane Editor: Caron_

Cheng Weiwan knew Han Zhifans words were all lies.

But his words still rattled her heart.

In the past, he used to speak to her like this, but in the end, it was all a lie.

She had been lied to once. She couldnt be foolishly lied to a second time.

So, no matter whether he was telling the truth or not, she couldnt be influenced by what he said.

She needed to free herself

With that thought, Cheng Weiwan didnt wait for Han Zhifan to finish saying You and said, Did you know? After you left, it wasnt like I didnt meet other people, and it wasnt like other people didnt express any feelings towards me I just didnt respond to them. I rejected them all

It wasnt like no one tried to persuade me; it wasnt like no one told me to find someone for Hanhans sake; it wasnt like nobody told me I deserved better! But I still insisted on rejecting them.

Do you know why?

Han Zhifan didnt say anything but Cheng Weiwan knew he was listening to her words. After a short moment of silence, she said, I admit I truly loved you when we were together. After we broke up, I still really liked you, but I rejected other people not because I liked you, but because I didnt dare fall for another person ever again.

I knew deep down that no matter if it was Lin Muqing or Lin Yinan, they all thought I still had hope for you and didnt want to give up. I told them that wasnt it, but they didnt believe me. Not too long ago, Yinan Ge talked to me about it and asked if I still had any hopes of being with you.

Do you know what I said to Yinan Ge?

I said you need two things to forget someone: time and a new love.

Some people might use a new love to forget, but I chose to only use time.

Im not persistent in waiting for you to love me. Im just waiting for myself to stop loving you.

I didnt lie to Yinan Ge everything I said was the truth. Since you brought a woman back home and since I watched you both having sex, standing outside

Han Zhifan, who had been listening to Cheng Weiwan all along, suddenly interrupted at that point. Wanwan, she and I didnt do anything that day. I was just putting on a show for you to watch

None of that is important Whats important is that from that night onwards, from the next morning when I sent keys to your apartment when I got home, and from when I put pen to paper and wrote that line I heard youre with someone new. From here on out, Im the hero who will fight the battles and bleed everywhere I started waiting for myself to stop loving you.

I waited a really, really long time. Ive waited till now

I dont know if Im living well or not, but in comparison to when you first abandoned me, Im a lot better. So if what youre saying is true, Ill tell you the truth too. I dont want to relive that train wreck of a relationship. I wont be with you, but its not just you, its everyone I wont be with anyone

To you, maybe you think you really need a chance. Just one.

But to me, its not that I dont want to give you a chance, I just cant give you one